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Who woulda thought?  | | |
| I miss you. Come back to me. 
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| So Ben and I are official as of November 4th. I am happy! I don't feel like writing tonight, but, just wanted to put that.
Also, I hate my first block teacher. She is fucking stupid and acts like sewing is the easiest task to do in the world, when it's not.
I hate not having my license yet.
I hate Ben not having his license yet.
Sharptop is next weekend, I am super excited for that. Say Anything's new album is really good. I'm about to finish The O.C. Season One. I started A Million Little Pieces. Tori let me borrow it. I got new make-up. I got caught up in school, except for damn first block. My brother's 21st is in two weeks. Thanksgiving is in three. New Moon is in three. Katelyn's party is in three. CIT Reunion is in three. Ahh, so much stuff to look forward to. I love it. I have to do 65 notecards for English by Monday..joy. I also learned on Friday I have the highest grade in the class, so hopefully I will be put into Honors next year.
Thought I didn't feel like writing? Wow. Guess that was a lie.
I saw Paranormal Activity last night with Tori and her mom, and Robert Littman Paige and Andrew ending up sitting with us.
I realized how much I fucking missed Robert. I hadn't seen him in six months, he moved to Kentucky last year, and he came to my school on Friday. I saw him briefly when school let out and we were going to hang out on Saturday but then he just walked into my theater last night, it was so weird but tight. He saw me and Paige and Andrew acted like they were just going to keep walking up the steps and sit somewhere else but Robert freaked out, turned around, and ran down around the theater to sit beside me. I loved it. At the end of the movie he freaked out too because he saw a different ending to it and we both were holding on to each other for like five minutes because we were so scared. I swear, that was the scariest movie ever. I don't even get how, but it was.
I just missed him so damn much..oddly enough. I didn't even realize it until I actually got to sit down and talk to him. Guess that's it. Not much else is new. :) | | |
| So Benjamin got drunk tonight.. well, last night. It's 2:35 A.M. Why am I such a late-blogger? Anyways, I can't say I'm surprised, but, still. I'm pissed. Kind of. Well right now I'm too content to be pissed but on the inside, I am very pissed. At my brother also, because I'm pretty sure he is trashed. He is turning 21 in 17 days, but that is besides the point. They are both still drunk off their asses. Why am I always the one worrying? Taking care of others? Sometimes the mother in me is a real annoying bitch, like, I hate her. I wish I wasn't this way sometimes.
Nah, I take that back. I wouldn't be who I was if I didn't have this maternal (is that the right word?) instinct or whatever inside of me. I just wish people would listen to me! I feel like I'm always right, well, a lot of the time, and people always listen too late or not enough or not in the right way and just ahh, it annoys the hell out of me. But hey, it's life. It's how it goes. Blogging saves me. No, really. These little rants really do help. I love Benjamin. | | |
| I am starting a peace with myself. For today, and for tomorrow, and for the future. I am going to be happy with myself. Not stress over every flaw, not over any curl that isn't perfect, not over any strand of hair that isn't perfectly straight, not over a tiny pimple, not over some extra skin, not over ANYTHING. I am going to love myself. Forever. 
http://www.seventeen.com/health-sex-fitness/body-types/body-peace-pledge | | |
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